Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Goal 1# being in the best physical shape of my life

So last blog I sat down and wrote three big goals that I would love to achieve in my lifetime. I understand though that in order to reach those three big goals that I need to first break up the goals into smaller ones that are easier to manage. It won’t be easy, and there are going to be events that will make this seem impossible, but you know what? This can happen with a little hard work and some discipline in my life. Discipline something that I seem to be lacking in certain areas of my life, but it is something that I know I can work on.

Therefore, in my last blog my first big goal was to be in the best physical shape that I can be in.  Now I know that is a big, loft goal to reach considering when you look back at my life I always was the fat over weight kid, and it moved into my adult life. Now though instead of being the fat over weight kid now I am the fat over weight adult. However, I am working on changing that over the last seven years of my life I have lost around fifty pounds. However, it is nowhere close to where I want to me. As I sit here typing I am still around 220 pounds and still very much out of shape.

So now, it is time to set some goals to reach my goal of being in the best physical shape of my life
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                                                                Run a marathon           
Run a tougher mudder event
Be able to have a baby

Each of those goals is still big goals to reach however; each one of them broken down can be reached in a certain amount of time. Each goal will get me closer to my goals of being in the best physical shape of my life.

Run a marathon
So in order to run a marathon I need to start small. I need to focus on the first step of being able to run at all. As I am writing this blog, I am actually in my second week of the C25K running program. Anyone that is out there that is not a runner, but wants to be I would recommend looking into it. It is a great program to get you started.

After I finish the c25k, running my plans is to take a few weeks and allow myself to get into the routine of running thirty minutes a day three day a week. From there my plan is to keep using the running programs and move up to the 10k then half marathon and finally to finish it off with the full marathon training. In between each program, I plan to take breaks from training and to focus on what I learn. I also plan to do research for different races that will help me reach my over all goal of the marathon finish.

Therefore, while my big goal is to run a marathon I have many smaller goals for along the way. As I attack each goal, I will talk about it more.

Run a tougher mudder event
That is something I have always wanted to do. I ran the warrior dash a few years but and I kick my self in the butt for not keeping up with my training on that. For my tougher mudder training on my off running days, I have been adding in some crossfit training that I have found free online. It seems to be helping a lot to get myself started. I am planning down the road to invest in some more beachbody programs to help on top of looking into joining a crossfit gym. Right now I am tight on money though so until then I am going to keep going with my at home workout that I find online.

To be able to have a baby
The main reason for this goal is to be able to finally have a baby. I am a true believe the reason I am not a mother yet is my weight.  Therefore, by reaching the best shape that I can be in I will helpfully reach a very important goal of being able to have children. For this one I am really focusing on my diet.  I need to lower carbs intake from my diet. Which I am going to be honest with you guys at the moment that is very hard to do.  Money wise I am pretty tight and use a lot of food pantries and stuff to get food. They tend to love to give carbs out as free food. However, I am trying to limit the amount that I eat.  I am not using my situation as an excuse because I know that it can be done. I am learning as I go and I will end up reaching the end goals.


So now that I broken down my over all goal of reaching the best physical shape of my life I have a starting block of where I need to start and go in order to hit the goals. They will not be easy and there a chance over time I am going to have to change it around in order to reach my goals. However, they are set and I am on the right path. 

Thursday, June 12, 2014

facing failure and three big goals

To be honest I have some big goals for myself, and really no clue how to reach any of them. I know they take hard work and dedication, and I am willing to put in the hours. To be honest though I am not sure where to start with this whole changing my life for the better journey that I want to go on. The things that I want to change are going to change my life forever and to be honest I am a little scared about that.

I have a fear of failure, if I believe there a chance that I can fail doing something then I will not even try it. On the other hand, if I do try it then I will make myself fail just to prove a point that the only thing I am good at is failing. Why though should I live my life like that? Why should I be so afraid of failure, that I actually set myself up for failure? I should not and I need to stop that. I need to change that thinking and realize that I am designed to do great things in my life.

It is hard though to change a thirty-year-old habit, but I believe if it is something that I want bad enough then I am going to find the way to change this and live the way that I want to live, and the life that I want to live. I do not want to settle for second best or settle that it is okay to fail, because you know what neither one of those options are okay. Failure is not an option any more and I am going to start believing it.

Therefore, in my life, there have always been three things I wanted to do, but because of my fear of failure, I never did them. Well it is time now to start living the life I want and doing what I set out to do.


Be in the best physical shape that I can be in

Run my own business and be great at it

Write blogs, short stories, novel, poems anything just get my name out there.


So there we have it three majors’ goals that I have set for myself in order to live the life that I want to live. There are smaller goals that I also plan on hitting but those will be talked about more once I figure out how to start living the life that I deserve to live.


Be in the best physical shape that I can be in
I am no where close to this goal as I’m sitting here writing I am weighing somewhere around 220lbs, I can’t even run one mile without stopping, and my body looks like nothing like what I know it can look life. However this body is my starting point and I know that I have nowhere to go but up from this point.


Run my own business and be great at it
This is not even started yet. I have a few ideas of where I want to go with this but I need to do my research and figure out what I want to do with my life. I am leaning towards something in the fitness world since my major goals resolve around fitness and I would love to spend the time motivating people to be the best that they can be.


Write blogs, short stories, novel, poems anything just get my name out there.
When I was younger, I used to love to write. I would spend hours writing short stories, and poems. I was actually good at it, and had teachers over the years tell me I should think about going into writing as a career. Well as you can tell I never did that and I told myself, I was not a good enough writing. So here I am thirty years old and realizing I gave up all my childhood dreams that I was good at. Therefore, my plan for this is to get out there, to write and get people to read it.

Therefore, while I have three majors goals in my life each one has many different aspects that I need to work on. No one goal is going to be easy and I am going to have to work my butt off to reach them. However, I am starting to realize I am worth it. I am worth fighting for and getting what I want in life.


Therefore, I am hoping you will join me in the journey that I am going to go on. To watch me grow into the person I deserve to grow into.